The neatest thing about God is that the work He is doing in me is not happening in just me. And even better, the work never stops.
I’m learning that when you get comfy and complacent is when God swoops in and says “Alright, time for a change!” It’s a beautiful devastation when that happens. Everything you thought to be true and everything you have known is shaken and different. It’s easy to get mad at God and not understand but what’s beautiful is that it’s never done in vain and it’s never done without a purpose.
I’m in this place of complacency and God has definitely reminded me of it. When I came into college, my end goal was to graduate and move to LA. I had no concerns about Florida or Orlando and knew this place was temporary.
God began working on my heart and soon the desire began to fade. I knew I wanted to join staff with Cru and be apart of Jesus film. I spent the summer finishing school and trying to raise support. The passion I had for people that did not know the same God I did and needed a way to know him burned inside my heart. I also knew I still had a passion for film. Boom. Perfect. Or so I thought. I didn’t get my support raised that summer and had to come to terms with that. Another devastating setback.
I started working at Apple and thought I’ve made it. I know that I have the dream job and I’m working with great people that have the same passion for the same piece of technology. I got full time at this wonderful place and soon after realized that I still haven’t hit the nail on the head of where God wants me.
Talking with a good friend today made me realize that God is always going to shake things up. I need to get use to that! What’s incredible about serving the God I serve is that He is the same God of the bible and the same God today. The same God I serve is the God that Paul and the disciples served. The same God that raised people from the dead is the same God I serve and can still do that if He wants. The people in my community that I admire and I thought I could never be on their spiritual level is still in fact the same God I serve. That God dwells in me and is constantly creating a new me. Just when I get comfy, Boom. God is changing it up.
I need to begin to expect big things from God and remind myself daily of what He has already done and what He will continue to do. I want to be apart of that. I want to see miracles. I want to see the world changed. I want to surrender everything I have even when it seems impossible. I want to follow the passions God has instilled in me and live to who He says I am, my rightful identity.
It’s time to step up to the plate and surrender.